8 am. Sat on floor facing balcony. No wind. Took 3 refuge and 5 precepts. Then remembered yesterday when I was kind to an old lady pushing a trolley collecting cardboards. A smile came, I felt metta and after a while piti arose. I also recalled yesterday where a kind lady at market who sold me a $28 mala. It also brought up metta.
I used relax smile and metta constantly. When the metta no longer felt I did wisdom by contemplating anicca, dukkha and anatta. Sukha arose and I abided in it. Piti also arose repeatedly. The background piti kept me going for 45 mins.
Mindfulness was quite strong. It allowed me to do wisdom quite well. I could see dukkha caused by craving and also saw anatta. My suffering is self-inflicted when I wanted to control things. When I see anatta, it was a major relief.
I also saw the futility of seeking fulfillment in anything because of anicca.
Since yesterday I am able to see anicca, dukha and anatta. Last night while lying in bed to sleep, anatta was strong. My mind was so peaceful.
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